Extracurricular struggle

 HARVARD  would you want me without being special just to feel special while being there? Like, I need to do extracurricular activities to be ''special''.

Whatever 🙄

Today, with my scout we went to do our ''Sopa solidaria '' so solitary soup where we gave soup and bread for kids who needed.Its was fun:there were music,jokes... like normal teenagers environment.Although,there weren't as much kids as we expected; so we kinda ''obligated'' kids to come to eat cause food was lefting . But we also ate our soup,I couldn't because I'm doing Lent so I'm fasting.It looked good though.👌🏿

Moreover, at the activity of volunteering I felt like a pedo!!!!!!😪

Let me explain why. In the scout (in Angola),there is 4 section:

1- Lobitos:''baby wolf'' ,yellow, 5-10 years old

2-Juniors: literally juniors, green ,10-13 years old 

3-Seniors:also literally seniors,  blue ,13-18 years old 

4-Caminheiros: ''hikers'' ,red, 18+ until you are selected as leader 

I am a senior,and I don't know why today or why HIM I'm  kinda...                                  attracted to a boy from the juniors.               In addition, this isn't even the first time I see him,like why.....

Today he was so FINE bro!!!!! I just...OMG.He looked more attractive than JJ from outer banks.Dont get me wrong,he has at least 13-14 years old .WAIT I bet he is in seniors section because this was an activity of seniors.Yes!! I feel less pedo.

The way he was dancing,DANGGG,you could sense every move .His smile on my God or even when he doesn't-like WHAT IT HAPPENING to me,is it my hormones ?! 

When he was dancing,we did kinda of one eye contact It was 0.2 seconds but it was sufficient to feel butterflies. At each time I was searching him with my eyes only to look at him.He isn't even my style!!

Also,this activity checked one of mine extracurricular I want to do but there are a lot to do compared to my what I already did.

                 What I want to do

                           

                        What I did



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